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Orangeline’s Definition: A place where…

– you have your own room – set aside just for you (and not some extra room somewhere)
– you can find things in the closet drawer that you thought would be gone forever, when you left it behind on your last visit 6-12 months ago
– duration of stay & intervals between the stays are not part of the defining equation
– you are not treated like a visitor
– you do not have to ask permission for watching the television, using the common bathroom and finishing the last can of drink
– you can have a say in what’s for dinner and where you want the new couch to be
– … … …

*will add more if I can think of any



everything within a radius of 20m …


Computer Graphics Paper tomorrow…
give me all your luck… and maybe…I said – MAYBE (0.000342%) a miracle might happen and I’ll pass~



I’m going mad & I couldn’t believe my eyes (which are seeing stars now) when I read this,

“Computer Engineers’ main goal, which is significant for professional status, is the desire to better human condition today and in the future, through the improved use of information.”

Aren’t we noble, selfless and altruistic?!?

Defining “Profession” first!
“Profession is distinguished by pioneer professions such as medicine, law and engineering. It’s prestigious (!!) and commands respect (i never knew that engineering commands respect in any form, except our ability to pull through farking hellish exams). Professionals are a controlled group, even elites and considered exclusive.”
i.e. Not anybody can be a professional … but of course … this is a rather old definition of profession.

but after that, I came across this passage that contradicts the altruistic nature of Computer Engineers.

“Professionals possess and have studied some discipline in detail and depth. This enables them to possess a specialized body of knowledge, which is usually used in the advancement of civilization. (Every member of a profession seems really noble and deserving of some noble prize) So, there is a need to highlight or separate certain jobs as professional, to give it status, to give recognition to it as an occupation which society NEEDS as important for its functioning.”

WTF … What about all the big talk about answering some calling and provide service based upon whatever we have left after the the exam-monster and fucked-up lecturers (+ bitchy lab tech who does nothing but flirt with disgusting guys and chat on the smelly cordless phone) dissolve much of our brain cells.
If we need the recognition, status and HIGH PAY? Why all the talk-cock-sing-song about the benefit of man-kind?

That’s why I hate being an engineer… just by being employed as a

“Network Security Executive Consultant”
(read: IT Guy who hooks up printers &/or troubleshoot Microsoft Windows VISTA bugs or hangs for EVERYONE in the department)

it’s like I’m announcing out loud,

“Nonoonoo…. I really wanna help mankind! Money, status and recognition are just the LITTLE (farking big; and ARE THE MAIN POINT OF ME BEING A FARKING ENGINEER, IN WHICH I FARKING PREFER TO BE A ROCK STAR, for the records) incentives that comes along with this FANTASTIC OCCUPATION.” — Angeline smiles the most geniune grin she can think of. (imitating Ben Stiller)

I need some crack, NOW!


So much for the studying sessions…
I’m on the verge of going … something something…

I just had to take some pictures, force some smiles before I continue MUGGIN’ for my bioInfo paper tomorrow.
Note: the hovering Hello Kitty dustbin is there to cover some disgustingly huge plastic bag that I place in my room for rubbish.
and yes, I know my room is extremely untidy & vile for a lady.

I have realised that I should no longer hide behind Eric’s “praises” & pampering.
Therefore, with the completion of my first full-length prologue, I shall announce that I do have another blog (space) where I do a little writing.

I’m extremely inferior when it comes to writing, but I love my ideas! (That’s why I’m still hanging on with my pinky.)
My very first try was something about time traveling & chaos theory, but one of my close friend then made a joke out of it. (And at the same time indicating that my first chapter sounded like some pornographic, hentai japanese manga story; Come to think of it… it sure did!)
I was extremely disheartened; went into self-loathing and stopped trying to write for a very very long time.

By the time I, quite literally, picked up my courage to write, it was about a year later.
I was inspired by Blade and came up with a story on vampires. Fantasy and Science fiction have also been my thing. I like alternate worlds and worships the idea of “What if…?” when thinking in relation to reality.
My vampire story was titled “Condamned”. To make things easy for myself, I wrote very short chapters at the beginning. The content and style were pretty much graphic novel style and not much effort was put into the language – yes, I admit all these!
I still love my idea, and would love to re-write Condamned, starting from the origins that Eric and I spun out of our weirdo minds.
Old Chapters of Condamned can be found in my deviantArt gallery. 😀

The very first piece that I actually posted on Cross and Burn was a short writing I did when I was still an intern @ Siemens. It’s a pseudo world where the people are living on a piece of floating cardboard box. It was a reflection of my frustration for office politics, but I did not continue the story.

After “Cardboard Nation”, I went on to try out different ideas of mine in both English and Chinese. They are all posted in Cross and Burn but most of them are just short prologues. Also included are little writings (not much of a story) that I composed when certain ideas just hit me out of nowhere. They are under the category of “Little Words”.

Many of the projects are still untitled though. 😀

Oh … if you can read Chinese, please help me by reading through my first full-length prologue titled 「花菀」:: 『曇花祭』之 序章.
It would be great if you can give me some comments about the style, language and content.

here’s an extract:


所谓的“昙花祭”便是为了本家最手欢迎的才姬 - “昙” 而立的标会。

(五)在时效过了之后,赢得此祭的贵人不得参与接下的“昙花祭”有 - 两祭。

许多想成为专属拥有才姬 - “昙”的客人,在阅读完毕的同时,也随着“昙花祭”渐渐逼近地脚步而慢慢地失去控制理性思考与金银价值观的考量。大多数的谜魂者的思考处都停在规则(三)的“这时效之内,才姬绝不会会见其他客人”,却没多少人会为在九十日后的自己设身处地地想一想。

第五条规则的残酷度应有万箭穿心,全身遭红蚁痛咬 - 手脚却被捆绑般地难受吧。

P/S:I’m really bad @ written humor and romantic writing; I’m still trying to learn and practise.